‘Ash-hadu anha illallaah wa ash-hadu anna Muhammadan ‘abduhu wa rasooluh’ Do you remember saying these words? As Muslims, we say them during every Prayer and if you are a revert to Islam you would have testified these words infront of two witnesses. Picture the moment. How did you feel? Who was with you? Your Imaan was probably sky high and you were determined to be the best Muslim, the best human being, you could possibly be…
Skip forward to today. How do you feel at the moment? Can you honestly say you are proud of your progress? Is there something missing in your worship that you can tackle? Consider that one day you will leave this world, what would you have gained? What would you have left behind? Will your scale be heavy on the good deeds or the bad deeds? Are you more afraid to please society or to please your Creator? Do you put Him first?
‘And fear Allah and know that you will meet Him. And give good tidings to the believers.’ Surah 2 Ayah 223; Holy Qur’an.
Once you have reflected say, ‘Alhamdulillah/All Praise to Allah’no matter how
badly you have slipped there is always Forgiveness. It is unavoidable that people will err. This is the nature upon which Allah subḥānahu wa ta’āla created the human being. It should be a habit to seek Allah’s forgiveness. Through Prayer, through sincere Duaa, through following up a bad deed with a good deed, through helping others, through feeling guilty about sinning – these are all wonderful Mercies from Allah subḥānahu wa ta’āla.
‘And Allah is Forgiving and Forbearing’ Surah 2 Ayah 225′ Holy Qur’an.
Our role model, Prophet Muhammad Sall Allāhu ʿalay-hi wa-sallam said “I swear by Him in whose hand is my soul, if you were a people who did not commit sin, Allah would take you away and replace you with a people who would sin and then seek Allah’s forgiveness so He could forgive them.” [Sahīh Muslim (2687)]
This isn’t a free-ticket to sin, you cannot simply say Astaghfirullah (I seek forgiveness in Allah) and then continue to sin, you cannot cheat Allah for in the end you will only cheat yourself…
However, this is a Promise from Allah subḥānahu wa ta’āla. If you feel guilty about something you have done, someone you have hurt and you seek help from Allah with sincerity, with a pure heart just like the day you said your shahada, He will Forgive you and Allah subḥānahu wa ta’āla never breaks His promise.
If being a Muslim seems difficult, be patient, for that journey leads to a very beautiful destination.
The purpose of your life is not to be perfect. There is no such thing as a perfect Muslim, or a perfect human being. The only person you should try to be better than, was the person you were yesterday. Console your heart with the knowledge that God has chosen to guide you to Islam, the way of life He has chosen for us, which is truly the greatest blessing in this temporary world. You’re never worthless to Him and all that matters at the end of the day is His pleasure. You’re still breathing, it’s never late to fix your relationship with Him, so run to Him and hold onto Him while you still can. He is always close.
“And We have already created man and know what his soul whispers to him, and We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein” Surah 50 Ayah 16′ Holy Qur’an.
Ahmed Deedat said, ‘Every word of the Qur’anic text is meticulously chosen, chiselled and placed by the by the All-Wise Himself.’ Therefore, why did Allah subḥānahu wa ta’āla choose the jugular vein?
These veins carry deoxygenated blood from the brain towards the heart and evering them can cause death due to rapid loss of blood. First, the Quran may be implying that one should trust in God’s absolute power; even at the most vulnerable point in your body, God is there to protect you. The Quran mentioned critical veins of the head, rather than those of other organs that are just as important. Indeed, severing other large veins in the thigh, heart, or liver, for instance, would also cause death. Indeed, science shows that our highly developed brains are what distinguish us from other animals. Perhaps the Quran is suggesting that faith is closely intertwined with rational thought.
‘And say, the Truth is from your Lord, so whoever wills – let him believe; and whoever wills – let him disbelieve.’ Surah 18 Ayah 29; Holy Qur’an.
It’s never too late to become a better Muslim, a better human. Start now, even if you haven’t prayed for weeks, years even. Remember Allah subḥānahu wa ta’āla is Al-Ghaffaar i.e The Great Forgiver – The One who forgives the sins of His slaves time and time again.
Dear Allah, engrave the Shahadah into my heart and soul forever. May I live by it and have it on my lips when I return to you.